She's VERY EMBRACABLE ..... oh yeah!!
Unlike ANY other!

I was still with my ex, Sally, when I met Billie & her ex, not sure what name she's using this year but it was BJ back then. The womyn changes her name like some people change their underwear. Anyhow, I was home working on my pickup while Sally went to town to get a few groceries & more booze for me. I figured it this way ..... I had enough to roll a couple more (joints) & there was still about a six in the fridge, so I was good for a while.

I was there all by myself which was something I loved. Guess you could say I've always been a loner especially if I wasn't getting along with the person who was living with me. Sally & I had been having rough times & whenever I could get away from her, I was all for it. So I planned to work on the truck during a time that usually was saved for grocery shopping which meant if I stayed home, I was in for at least a couple hours all by myself..

There I was enjoying being by myself with my booze, smoke and my stereo blaring while working on the truck when a car I didn't recognize came driving in to the yard. After squinting my eyes enough to see, I was able to make out that it was Sally & her daughter, Sharon (what a nightmare) riding with two other womyn. Right away anyone could tell the other womyn were a couple. Hmmmmmmmm, another lezbo couple way out here. Kewl! We were introduced and they explained what had happened.

I was told that Sally's car broke down on the way back from the store, right near the road Billie & BJ lived down. They noticed her stranded & offered her a ride. That was our first encounter. So I grabbed a couple tools, a fresh beer and put on a shirt over my T. We wound up towing the car back home so I could check it out with the rest of my tools there. I later found a cracked vacuum hose and got her running.

After our meeting we visited each other & became friendly, so to say. I wasn't very fond of BJ because she was very obnonoxious, arrogant and most of the time she would usually take a far off subject & somehow turn the conversation to sex.. It didn't take long before she began speaking of the sexual relationship of her & Billie. Any time the conversation even hinted that it was going to that, I would grab my beer and smokes and politely excuse myself while walking towards the door to go outside. I'd say something like, "Well I need to check something under the hood." & glance at Sally, noticing her expression of "Thanks a friggin' heap!!" on her face. It became a common thing. Well after a couple times of doing this Billie would follow me out the door & 'help me fix my truck'. *S* We were able to talk freely without BJ interrupting, & speaking for her, which I hated with a passion. We found out we had quite a bit in common which sparked my interest in her all the more. Also, when she was speaking for herself, it was quite apparent that she had a great sense of humor. Both BJ and Sally could hear us laughing outside and I'm sure it bothered BJ quite a bit. Her jealousy caused her to react pretty bazaar at times later on.

I learned that Billie was a recovering alcoholic, played the drums & a little about her background. I really enjoyed those times that we were out in my yard fixin' the truck.

It didn't take too many encounters like that before I would be laying in the bed next to Sally & thinking of Billie & how much enjoyment I got from talking with her & wondering 'what was under her T-shirt?' Geezzzz! I couldn't get her off my mind!! I had to get a grip!! (no pun intended)

Not too long after our meeting I got a semi driving job. Sally & I decided on moving to the town we worked in, Lakeland, which is about a 40 minute drive from where we were living. So we got a place & our contact with Billie & BJ was mostly over the phone. We visited each other maybe twice after the move.

My relationship with Sally became unbearable. I was drinking more & more, drugs got pretty heavy, the physical closeness just wasn't something I wanted anymore. We fought & fought - I mean physical fighting. My whole world was one huge "pain in the ass" & I wanted out. I broke the relationship with Sally in 1990 but continued living in the same place to help with the bills, etc. We slept in separate bedrooms and never had sex. My life was my work, booze, cigs & dope.

Through telephone conversations I learned BJ had found another 'victim' & wanted Billie out of their dwelling. She moved across the street. Soon she got a job with the city we both work for now, Plant City. During our phone conversations I had asked her out, explaining that Sally & I were no longer a couple. She turned me down each time. I understood completely because I was a drunk & she knew that Sally & I used to get into some pretty heavy fights. The physical confrontations that Sally and I had scared her the most.

In early 1991, while on my way to a delivery with the semi I spotted her & tooted the air horn. A few days later I was 'working on my truck' when I heard Sally came out of the trailer. She said that Billie was on the phone. I had decided before that I was going to forget about ever being able to go out with her so I told Sally to say I was busy & would call her later. I really had no plans of calling her when I said that. Well, I did call her!! Old softy that I am. I invited her to our place & she actually said she would come. WHAT??? Yeah!!! She said she didn't think she could remember how to get in from the highway so we made plans to meet at a certain gas station the very next day.

It was Sept 27th. When it came time to go meet with her I hopped into Sally's car (which I had bought her with money I got after my father passed away that July) because it had A/C. I turned in the station lot & spotted her pickup truck. I pulled right in front of the truck, got out, climbed in the passenger side, leaned over & planted a kiss on her cheek. Well my emotions went crazy & without even thinking I put my arm around her & pulled her in for one of the best 'lip-locks' I have ever experienced until that moment. WOW!!!! Thoughts were swarming through my head, then I realized that she was actually kissing me back! Heart be still!!!! I felt pinging where a pill can't reach that I hadn't felt for such a long time!!! YAHOOOOOO! I'm alive!!!!! Ping-ping-kaabooom!!!

That evening Billie & I made out in her pickup truck & that was the first time I found out 'what was under her T-shirt!!! Oh Momma-MIA! P-E-R-F-E-C-T!!!

I wanted more & so did she!!! We made plans for me to go to her place after I got off work that Monday. Mondays were easy days which means that I usually finished up early afternoon.

You talk about 'feeling like a kid again' ....... Yeah buddy!!! Our first time to bed was heaven. It has only gotten better in time. She captured my heart! I never imagined making love to her would be that beautiful. Not only that but she is the first womyn who I actually enjoyed making love to me.

I knew from the beginning that I was having feelings for her that were stronger than any I ever had in my life. She was also falling for me but was very frightened --- after all, I sure as hell didn't have a great reputation as far as my drinking, drugs & physical anger went. Who could blame her for being leery.

Once we made the choice to date I thought it best to speak with Sally. Billie came over & we had a talk. Of course Sally's mealticket was on the line & she became pretty upset to say the least. I reminded her that our relationship was FIN, had been for a year & that we both knew it was UN-repairable.

On Oct 26th Billie was in a gig not too far from me. I asked her if she wanted me to get a motel room so she didn't have to drive all the way back home during the early morning hours. I got the room, had my 12 pack and my smokes & waited for her. The next day, the 27th, we were laying there holding each other & talking. In passing she mentioned that she liked me so much more when I wasn't drinking. That simple little statement went right to my heart. It burned it's way to my soul. I couldn't get it out of my mind. All that day I was tormented by it. When it came time for us to part I had made my mind up. I didn't say anything to Billie, didn't make any promises that I wasn't sure I couldn't keep. I went back to my place, opened the fridge door & took out the nearly full case of beer, went to the back room & got what little bit of grass I had left & when Sally asked me what I was doing I explained that I made up my mind to quite both. I began to take it all out the door when I heard her screaming, "What am I going to drink?" I felt like saying, "Frankly Sally ...... I don't give a damn" but I didn't. I merely said that if I'm to keep off that stuff, I don't want any in the house. I then put the stuff in my truck & drove over to a friends house & told him of my plans. I gave every bit to him & walked out.

When I got home I was a basket case. Did I REALLY do that? Can I stay off it? Oh crap I need a drink!!! I want a joint!!! Am I NUTS??? Yeah ....... I was nuts over Billie Dee!!! I wanted her & I wanted the booze & dope but I couldn't have her if I did the poison too. I then realized that she meant more to me than anyone ever did but I wasn't even sure of her actual feelings. She told me on the phone that she loved me but hell, love is a word that can be deceiving at times. Sometimes we put more into that little four letter word than what was meant. Was I wishful thinking? Oh hell! The way I feel about it, if you do love someone, you build on that love. You make plans to be together always. I knew I had to prove to her that I could change. But could I???

I called Billie & told her of wanting to go cold turkey on both the drugs & booze. I knew I had to stop both because I was afraid if I kept on doing the drugs, it would lead me back to the booze. I also asked her for her help in staying 'clean'. She said she would help me all she could.

I soon found a place for myself & Billie & I began seeing each other more & more. I had a tough time staying off the junk. She helped me every inch of the way. She supported me with visits, phone calls & her loving compassion.

One day I was standing in my kitchen when it hit me like a ton of bricks. This feeling I have for her ....... it's different ....... it's special ...... it's so damn deep!!!! I'm actually experiencing what L-O-V-E is! "I'm IN LOVE!!!" All my life I never thought I was capable of true, honest love. My revelation was both exciting as well as frightening. There was no question about it this time ..... I did love Billie Dee! What a powerful feeling this love is.

My Mom came down to visit for a week. Billie stayed with us & my Mom couldn't get over the change in me. She called Billie her Angel & indeed she was right. It didn't take Mom much time to love Billlie as a daughter. She 'reported' to the whole family how wonderful Billie is & how much she loved her. She told of the complete change in me since being with Billie.

Mom visited us more often & got closer to Billie each time. Billie loved her as a Mom & everybody was happy ....... especially ME!!!!

Billie & I soon moved in together - her place. We decided not to make any 'promises' to each other until we were sure. Well I knew "I" was sure but Billie needed more time ...... who could blame her, huh?

I had asked her a few times to marry me but she insisted that she needed more time. So it was given to her. I soon made the decision that I was no longer going to ask her. She was going to have to ask ME!! There ... I put my foot down!! (ouch)

Valentine's Day 1993! Billie came to me, went down on one knee & asked me to marry her. Both our eyes filled with tears & of course I said, "It's about damn time!!!!!" No, not really ....... We decided the ceremony would have to be at the beginning of the new moon. After checking the calendar we picked May 8, 1993. We went down & picked out our rings. Then hunted someone to marry us. Our plans were to change our birth names. I refuse to include what they were! Don't ask!! We also decided to use each others last names in our new names. We made out the forms & sent them in to the court. The judge okayed them. What an ordeal that was!! Geezzzz!!!

We found a notary who was willing to conduct our ceremony. She even went so far as to contact the state capital to see how she could create the document in order to make it a legal 'partnership'.

Everything went as planned & when the big day came, I was SO nervous!!! I just knew those partially dark clouds blowing in would bring rain on our outside ceremony!! Well I couldn't be more wrong. During our vows (we made up our own) the clouds broke & the bright sunshine filled the yard with happy, happy, happy!

I had no doubts that I gave my heart to the right womyn!! This love, this powerful love is the greatest feeling I have ever felt in my life. It's one thing loving someone but to love the 'right' person is another thing. Billie IS Ms Right!

So there you have it ....... we met, fell in love & even death won't 'part us' because this soul will always be looking for her & ONLY her...... for eternity!

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