She IS my Special Angel!!!
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Billie is my inspiration for quitting the booze and drugs AND staying off them. I'm not saying I don't have cravings ..... hell she does too but our love for each other keeps us 'clean'. We're buying our little house which is an older cinderblock home built in 1958. This place is solid!! With the storms down here in (hell)Florida, one needs to buy something that will stand up to them. She had decided to sell "Old Blue", the pickup truck that we enjoyed our first kiss in. She owned that since 1978 & let me tell you, it was awful hard for her to let it go. Well ya see, we both graduated up into newer vehicles & the registration & insurance was too much for us. So instead of selling her 1998 F150, she gave the '74 a new home. She has since purchased a 2003 F150 XLT and I now own (well me and the bank) a 2003 Pontiac Sunfire. She's now with a good band and one of the members was with her when she had her band which was when she and BJ were still together. As soon as I can find the time, I'll be transferring a few sound samples here for you. We're happy as ever now & plan on staying that way. At one time there was a bit of interference but that's over & done with. We love each other more & more. She's my life. She's my happiness. Our hearts are one. No one in this entire world has ever touched the depth of my soul as Billie does. It's absolutely amazing what our love can endure. We're totally devoted to each other. We don't take each other for granted nor do we play those little 'games' that so many other couples play. We practice honesty & it's stronger then ever these days. You would think that in time the love would mellow out but it's grown & strengthened. I certainly don't deserve such a wonderful womyn. Neither of us are good looking but when I look at Billie Dee I see the most beautiful womyn I have ever known. Her inner beauty shines bright. There are others who have been in my life who were what society would label as 'pretty' but not one single one of them can compare to what I see when I look at her. She's an honest, compassionate, loving, true person that I have NEVER found in any other. She never tries to be someone she isn't nor has she ever played with my feelings. Another fact about her that adds to our relationship is that she is also a 'lifelong' lesbian, such as myself. I don't have to share her with anyone ...... no ex husband, no kids, no one. I found that this is best for me. I'm the type of person who requires being #1 in my partners life & heart, & Billie makes sure I know I am. No other womyn has ever made me feel as loved or as important as I do with her. She's also reassured by me that no one is as important to me as she is. We have so much in common but just enough differences to make our life together interesting. Our differences aren't anything that puts a strain on our love. We're independant as far as our likes & dislikes. I'm not constantly told 'how different I am' & we don't attempt to 'change' each others feelings or beliefs. We don't let jealousy create bitterness. I know for a fact who she's in love with & she knows who I'm in love with. We seem to be the envy of most couples we know. We're lovers, best friends, soulmates - our hearts are one. We're the perfect couple who have the perfect love & are very fortunate to have found each other. We would have liked to have gotten together at a much younger age ........ like maybe 5 or something. *S* The Creator has blessed me with this Angel who has reached deeper than any other womyn can. One other came pretty close but game playing with my heart, dishonesty, deceit & outright lying are big no-no's in my book. Those dark characters can change love into hatred for me. It also tells me how NOT in love that person really is. Billie has never played games with me ........ at least not the nasty, hurtful ones. The games she plays with me are those that enhance our unity!! *and their fun too* As long as my soul continues to be, I'll be in love with my Billie Dee! Hopefully the Creator will allow us many more lives together as two womyn in love. We both prefer it that way. I don't ever want to come back as a male nor do I want her as a male. It's the lesbian life for us. Oh YEAH!!!! Well that's it for now. Please understand that my lifemate is one with me & our love will continue til the end of time. I'll never seek another in ANY future lifetimes. Never! Okay folks, this is an update ..... April 2004 - OUR WEDDING PAGE TO GO BACK 'HOME'
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